This is a topic I feel insecure about. My inability to give comfort yet how I seek it from a higher figure.

My friend could be crying about a monster they have to call a parent, and I can't say much besides from how far I'd go to get their ass arrested for life, giving them legal and psychological advice and how to distract yourself, knowing damn well I'm not even doing anything but making them feel worse or annoyed.

I fear I look like I sound like "hey it will be okay :)))))) just return to God!!!" while I never mentioned God in anything. I want to help. I want my friends to be able to get therapy. I want my friends to be content with themselves. I want the abusive "parents" of my friends either gone, arrested with me as the main witness or in hell. I want the bad teachers of my friends to be banned from being a teacher. I want my friends' exes unexistent. I want my friends to be happy. I want my friends to have better friends that can properly comfort them.

Not someone that just says "I hope you will feel better soon" or "What can I do to help?" It makes me sound uncaring. I want to be able to show my friends I care. Like, I need to be able to fight a sea monster and die on the way so my friend doesn't get ghosted anymore. I want to be able to pay money so my friends get better and be content with themselves. I want to be able to file a document so they won't miss their exes. I want to be able to physically pull out the problem myself from their mind. I want to be able to do something physical, to get rid of the problem, to unmount it like a computer part and crush it with my soles, to degrade the problem even more until it decides to get rid of it's own existence as I will never be enough to get rid of it myself.

I will never be enough for anyone at all. I want to be remembered as a hero, to be loved by my friends as I got rid of their problems. But I can't do it, as 1) I don't want to be creepy like "it will be okay sweetie" (I feel so scared using petnames for my friends because I don't want them to be weirded out) or 2) Unsymphatetic like "It will be okay and I love you." or 3) Agressive like "I will call the police on your parents if you want." I would but yeah. I just want it to be better for my friends. I want them happy.

I feel like a "heh...darkness waits for me...i dont wish death on my enemies as i can do it myself...(devil emoji)" kid please just kill me. Oh God I sound like "oh...my friends can live happily while i suffer holding their problems...(pouty face)" and I DONT LIKE IT CUZ THATS NOT IT !!!!! I just want to be able to respond to vents well oh my GOD please I need to be able to get rid of the problem to cheer them up and make them forget and give them a nice life

They deserve so much better than me and I deserve to die since I can't do anything nice ever and I'm the source of everything bad in this world (yes I'm serious about this. I geniunely believe in this most of the time. And the other part I'm just too optimistic, sleepy or just on my medicine to notice.)

Please let it be over. I want the best for my friends. Not me.

I want to use "Placing the Blame" by sElf for this vent, but a lot of people use it for their vents to the point people make fun of this song and it's not funny I just want to vent. "A-a-a-are y-y-you m-m-man enough...????!!!" SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH NO ONE CARES OH MY GOD LET PEOPLE BE. I feel so guilty. Maybe I'll make an animation. Holy shit this is also why I kin Medic maybe? No medical license type shit? Yes I stole a skeleton if anyones wondering :-D